.can't wake up.

There we go again. Another incident of my escape from death of sleep.

A family trip to thailand was an endearing one. But it had to wrap up with another of my most loathed nightmare.I got "pinned down by spirits" as superstitions call.. literally got stretched out like Jesus on his cross, i was pinned on my bed with my helpless vocal chords to call out to my brother for help, who's sleeping right next to me. Forcing my lids open that shut like iron gates.

REM paralysis or Sleep paralysis as science calls. 

"The clinical name for your experience is “REM Paralysis.” Scientists have demonstrated that the brain sends commands for movement to our bodies when we dream—to move in accordance with our perceived needs in the dreamscape. The reason we don’t move around in our beds, however, is because these commands for movement are intercepted at the top of the spinal cord in the brain stem, and are not passed on to the motor nerves. During REM our bodies effectively become paralyzed, to protect our physical safety, and to preserve the continuity of sleep.

Other common sensations during REM paralysis are pressure in the chest area, feelings that you are being held down or pushed into the bed, difficulty breathing or calling for help, and also feelings that you are elevating or levitating off the bed.

As you know from your experience, however, there never really is an intruder. Instead, feelings of restricted movement during sleep cause feelings of vulnerability, which are then translated into fears of attack. Because you are dreaming, these fears become represented as an intruder in the room or house, who is about to attack, while you remain paralyzed, unable to defend yourself—or to call for help.

The cure for “REM Paralysis” dreams is knowledge. The next time this dream happens, you want to remember that you are dreaming, and that there really is no intruder. To awaken yourself immediately from this dream, try wiggling a toe or finger—some small movement that will break the “spell” of paralysis. Or, as you grow more comfortable with the dreams, simply try to relax and roll over for more sleep. Sleep paralysis is annoying, but one cure for it is to get a plenty of REM sleep, so that the body does not keep you trapped in REM—when the rest of your mind wants to awaken!"

When science has an explanation, everything seems more comforting. It must be my immense lack of sleep. 

But i am still skeptical... its too fuckin' real.

And im bed-ridden now.